Sick..

Towards the end of December, Aj was playing with my hair and behind my right ear he found a dark redish, brown spot, It was never there before and it did not bother me so I forgot about it and just figured it would go away.  In February the area around the spot started to swell and hurt me pretty bad. So I went to the doctor, they did some tests and than started treatment right away.  So by march I had for sure found out that I have a type of cancer, I have abnormal cancer cells in my body and they gathered on my head and came to the surface of my skin and discolored and killed those skin cells. I also have a spot on my right ear. I found out that the cancer is benign and have been getting some nice painful treatments ever since. They make me sick to my stomach and give me very bad headaches. I am hoping that this will all be over soon and life can go back to normal. :)

Far Behind..

I am so far behind it is sad! So I guess I will just jump into recapping...

Aj and I were able to take one day off in early March and we headed down to Roosevelt Lake where his Grandparents were camping. The whole goal of this trip, besides a little get away, was to teach me how to fish. You see I have never fished before and Aj was set on turning me into a fisherman. We went out on the boat and low and behold I caught the first fish, Not only did I catch  my first fish ever, I caught three!!

(My First Fishie Ever!, Aj was proud. HaHa)

We are such animal lovers, and our little family has grown from us and our dog, to us, our dog, our horse, our bird, and our goat. Yes I said Goat.

Meet Princess Nellie..

She is soo cute, Has a attitude and I could not love her more, yes how strange I have a pet goat, but she really is soo much fun. :)

We also have our bird Julia, When we decided to get her, she was very loving to me in the pet store, but once we got her home we have come to find that she hates women, she simply tricked me into letting Aj get her and bring her home. She only repeats things I say, even though she is not fond of me, I still love her.

I have lots more to post, but I don't want to do a post overload tonight, So I am going to take some time to catch up on all the fabulous blogs I have missing oh so much!.

Day Three & Four..

Yesterday was day three of the challenge.. Day Three:Today's focus is on the blessings in your life.So grab a notebook and keep track of each and every blessing that comes your way.When you're looking for them, you'll be sure to find them... I kept my little notebook, and when I was going threw it last night, I realized that I had somethings written more than once, So I decided I would just share those..

• My family, They are wild, just a little more than crazy, but they are ALWAYS there for me when I need them, or even if I don't!
• Aj!, He helps me in everything I do, he is always the hand that is right there picking me up when I fall.
• My Heavenly Father, I get threw get day, just knowing he is on my side!.
• A roof over my head.
• I get to go to school, some would not see that as a blessing, but to have the chance to continue your education is one that many don't have.
• I have clothes on my back and food in my belly.

Those were just a few, I decided that I am going to keep on writing them down. I am going to keep my little notebook with me all the times, so when I am down and out feeling sorry for myself, I can look at my notebook and never forget how very blessed I am!.

Day Four!

Today is day number 4 for me..

Todays Challenge:

Often times we can get caught up in negative self talk.

Or in being negative period.

We tend to speak to ourselves more horribly than we would ever imagine speaking to someone we love.

So today, that stops.

With every negative thought that comes into your mind,

first immediately STOP it...

And then, replace that thought with what is TRUE and positive.

Even better, get some index cards and write out the negative thought on one side,

and the truth on the other.

Along with the truth, you could find a bible verse or quote that further encourages you in that area.

Notice what a difference you feel about yourself and about life at the end of the day.

I am horrible with this!, I also find my self comparing myself to others, I am going to stop that today!. :)

No soda going good!, I had to restock my frige so I don't see the soda, because that is what I automatically go for, but all in all, It is going pretty darn good!..

Day Two :)

Today's Challenge:

Let today be a day that you are focused on going out of your way to show love and kindness to the people around you.Whether that means sending a card,
writing a thoughtful email or note,
doing a chore for someone,
or spending extra intentional time with a friend, child or family member....
Whatever it may be, just find as many ways as you can throughout the day and do them.
And do them with a heart full of love.

I got a few cards sent out today to people that I don't tell enough how I love them and how Amazing they are.. :)

& thanks to everyone in my life, that make it is worth living!

Pss.. No Soda, going good!. :)

Day One.

So today was Day One for me of 21 Days to a Better You..

The First Challenge:

Day 1:

Think of something you are willing to give up for 21 days,

and commit to it once and for all.

Write it down.

Tell someone so they can help to hold you accountable.

and remember,

it's just for 21 days.

you can do anything for 21 days.

I decided....

 to give up Soda, I know that it is so cliche, but it is something that I have wanted to stop for a while, it is all I drink.. So today was my first day without soda, One day down, twenty more to go!! :)

This is all thanks to summer over at..

Go check her out!

Ps.. Aj and I got a Jardine Parrot today, her name is Julia.

21 Days To a Better You!

I have been looking for something to spice up my routine a little bit, to help me out of this rut I feel I am in with life... and today I found It!. Thanks to Summer!. :) I want to be more motivated towards my long goals I have ahead of me. I want a change, I have had that feeling that something has got to give and this challenge is going to be it, I can feel it! :)

So for the next 21 days I am going to be challenging myself with something each and every day to help me become a better me, I am so very excited!

I am going to start tomorrow. :)

The first Challange will be to figure out something to give up for 21 days, and to commit to it..

Happenings..

This past couple weeks has been hectic for me, it seems like my "To do" list keeps getting longer and I can not keep up. I hope to get all caught up this week. :) My cousin Kylynn and Friend Julie came to my house for a night and it was so fun too see them, thanks for comming ladies.. :)

Our good friend Jeremiah is going into the army, I have know Jeremiah since we were like 5 and have went to school with him all the way threw highschool. So I made him dinner and we played beer pong. It was fun..

Good luck!! :)

I almost forgot... Aj bought me a baby goat, I told him I wanted a goat and he actually went and bought me one.. haha, I told him I wanted a mini pig too and he says he is drawing the line with the goat. ;) She will be here in about a week. I am so excited.

V-Day Recap..

So Aj had to work on valentines day, but before he left to work, we fed our horses, I took him to breakfast and gave him lots of yummy chocolate treats, and ballons.. :) A couple hours after he went to work, The pretty flowers, candy and ballons he got me were delievered.

I made him lunch and cleaned the house.. I put highlights in my hair and got ready to go to dinner.. When he got off of work we left and went to a steakhouse. It was yummy.. Then we just went to walmart and got things we needed for around the house and headed home.. We ended the night watching the Break-Up.. (One of my favorite movies)..  I love babe, thank you for such an amazing day. :)

Ohh and my babes got me a pink fishing pole, haha.. He is too funny.. Does he not realize I have never caught a fish in my life, So I am getting ready for my upcomming fishing lessons.. Whoo Hoo.. ;)

 

Note to Self..

Some people never change, you can never change someone, and you can't help them if they don't want to help themselves...   Ps.. So I found the scrubs I need for school, what a relief!.

Frazzled...

SuperBowl Sunday, and I am doing laundry at half time, trying to scramble to get things done before the new week.... I feel like there is not enough hours in the day to get things finished. I hate that.. After school tomorrow I am going on a hunt for white scrubs.. Wish me Luck... :)

Never Forget... +

Wow, I cannot believe that it has been one year today since my opa passed away. Time has flown by so quickly. As I sit here trying to go over the past year in my head, nothing seems to make perfect sense. As I think about my past 19 years of life, this past year has been the hardest to overcome, but just like my Opa would have wanted it, here I am, here my whole family is taking one step at time towards the future. I have found myself being very angry this past few months, I have found myself holding tight to anything that once was my Opa's, simple things, like that chair he used to sit in, or the hats he used to wear. I am overly protective of them, if someone is sitting in hs chair wrong I yell and throw a fit, because I don't want them to break it. My little sisters tried to wear his old cowboy hats to school one day, and I would not let them, in fear of them getting ruined. I do not mean to act like this over such little things, I know that my Opa was not materialistic, he did not care for some old chair, or a simple hat. For me it is just the memories that those things hold, that I do not want to lose. I feel like if those things are presevered it is a sure thing that I will never forget a simple thing as him sitting in the chair watching the news, or watching a football game. How handsome he looked when he put on his cowboy hat and leather jacket. As each day passes I want to grasp onto all my memories more and more, in fear that someday they will not be as clear. I know I will never forget him, for he left an imprint on heart that will be there forever. I also find myself getting sad, when I look at Aj and know that he did not have the chance to meet my Opa, maybe that is because I long for my Opa's opinion or maybe it is just because I want him to give Aj one of his famous knee bending handshakes to see if Aj passes the test. But than I remember that Opa has left me something that will always be here for me, that will never lead me in the wrong direction, that tries everyday to be an example just as he once was, he has left me my Dad. My Opa taught my dad how to work hard, love with all he has, to never give up, and know when he should back down. He taught him the meaning of respect, How to balance everything in his life and still be happy, to be family orientated, kind hearted, tough when he needed to be and successful. He showed my dad how to have a life long marriage. All of the things that he instilled into my dad, I look forward to getting passed onto me. As I look at my dad today I see the same wrinkles forming on his face that my Opa once had, I see my dad working till he can't move and I see him losing 3 pairs of glasses a week, and I realize that my Opa is not gone, for he is in everyone of us that knew him and loved him. He has left his legacy behind for all of us to use as a guide to become better in everything we do. His spirt remains deep in my heart and soul, I love you Opa, I will love you everyday. I know that your love follows me wherever I go. Without you I don’t know who I’d be, but one things for certain I wouldn’t be me. You taught me how to be just like you I am eternally grateful for the example you have set for me.

Thankful

So today on facebook some women were posting this thing in their status about being thankful for your husband, fiance,or boyfriend.. I just figured I would do it on here instead, since I would like to say a little more than I am thankful... I also am going to make it not only the significant other, but about all the men in my life, and the other men would be my Dad, Opa, and Brother.. Lol.. MmmKay?.. MmmKay.. :) For Starters, Let me say Aj is a big kid at heart, and he always will be, and I do love that. He works hard everyday, and he is always trying to better himself. He loves his family, and for some crazy reason he loves mine. He puts effort into the littlest things, that some people would not even take a second look at. He is my fountation, my rock. He listens when I think that no cares, and that makes up for the times he doesn't listen at all.. lol.. He makes me smile when I want to crawl in a hole and never come back out, and he gives me the confidence to give things another try.  I love how he can appreciate the quite moments in life, and just be still. We see eye to eye on the most important things. And if we don't on some of the small things it just gives life enough spice to never be boring. Where one of us lacks the other one pushes. No matter how much confusion I have going on in my life, he is always there, letting me know he cares and he loves me.  

We are everything for each other we never knew we needed, does that make sense? I know that our relationship will never equal out to perfection, but I know what we are capable of and that makes him one of those people i've crossed paths with that I will never forget. He, has left an imprint across my heart, that many will never be able to do and for that... He is my love, my everything. There is not a day that goes by that I am not grateful to have him. 

Ok, next will be my Dad.. I have never had very many close friends in my life, I have keep everyone at a considerable distance. It just so happens that my dad is and has been one of my best friends. He has always been there, to give my a push or even a big shove when I have needed it. He has given me the upmost respect in everything that I do. He has taught me more than I will ever learn in any school or from any teacher. He has shown me the meaning of family and hard work. He is my mentor and my hero. I can never repay him for all of the second chances he has given me. I know that with my dad in my corner I will always be safe. He is my best friend, hero, mentor, but most of all he is my dad.

 

Next would be my brother, let's get this straight he is a big pain in my butt! He has made me madder than I thought I could ever get and pushed every button of mine more than once. Our relationship is def a love/hate one... lol.. But in the end he has protected me from the world for as long as I can remember. He has shown me that no matter how many times you fall, you are never too weak to get back up. He is also one of my best friends. It helps me get threw each day knowing that he is staying strong and is on my side.

"A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need."

Last, but Def not least is my Opa, But I am going to post about him tomorrow, since it is going to be one year that he has been passed.

Random's...

So this post is going to kinda be like how I have felt lately, chaotic.. LoL.. So here is just some random things that I have on my mind or just need to do.. or well you get the point.. Random things...

Sometimes, I just feel like screaming...

School is going good, I really like it, I really don't even mind the homework.

I keep finding myself making lists in my head of things I need or want and I just get mad at myself because I can't get all the things that I put on my lists..

I am not sick of the snow, just the muddy mess that I have to walk threw to go anywhere.

I am on the verge of shutting my phone down, because I feel so dumb having such a high phone bill. ha..

It seems that the more I try to be organized, or have everything go smoothly.. The more it doesn't, and the more frustrated I get!!.

I feel like I spend too much time on the computer and in the end get nothing done.

I am annoyed with my blog, it never looks the way I want it..

I have had a constant headache for the past three weeks..

This Saturday is going to be one year since my Opa passed away, I already don't want to get out of bed.

I bought a planner to get more organized and everytime I look at the planner I want to throw it out in the mud pit I call my driveway.

I picked my Oma up yesterday so she can spend some time at my house, she has been giving me good advice, like, "What makes a relationship work is, both people working together and not taking anything for granite."

I think I am done ranting and raving, for now at least...

Conversation For Today

I was starving after going to physical therapy so I came home and made myself a tuna sandwhich, As I went to take the second bite of it, I got the sudden urge to throw up and this is the conversation the came about

 two minutes after word..

Aj: Babe! (he is calling from the upstairs..)
Britt: What do you need?
Aj:Whatcha Doin?
Britt: (After comming up the stairs, leans in and gives him a kiss)
Aj: Did you just eat tuna?
Britt: Uh, Yes?!
Aj: And you didn't even offer me any, I see how it is..
Britt: Well, I made it and took one bite and than wanted to throw up on the sandwhich, so I threw it away
Aj: You are such a wasteful person, I would have eaten the sandwhich..
Britt: Well I am sorry that I don't want to feed you something that I wanted to vomit on..
Aj: You have problems..
Britt: And today I Guess they are with the Tuna..
Aj: (Looks at me like I need to be in a white padded room)
Britt: Well bye babe
Aj: Bye babe..

Decided..

I have decided I am MORE than ready to have this weekend over with! The past 24 hours has been a little rough. actually more than a little bit rough!. It has been emotionaly draining.. But as I get ready for my up coming week and get ready to say goodbye to today, I realize I love Aj and that is all the matters.. I realize the past is the past and you cannot change it, but you can choose to move forward and never repeat somthing you regret. That the past will stay the past as long as you decide to keep it that way..  I have learned that all threw my life I have judged, looked down, gotten mad, ect... on people because of thier past. I have come to the conclusion that this is not fair, I would not and do not like when people do this to me, I will not do this to anyone anymore..

The Snow

We have had a very interesting week, It has snowed a LOT!.. It has also rained between our snow storms. So we are waiting for the sun to come out and dry us up a bit.. :) We got more than 3 feet..

The Cove..

Aj and I watched this movie the other night, I suggest you go and rent it.. It is pretty darn good!

Conversations..

So Aj and I have had some intresting convo's this past week..  Convo Number One: We were at work painting this bedroom and we were listening to country music on the radio.. I cannot remember what song was on, but it was a guy singing and he was singing about how he did not have anything.. Sooo.. Aj says- "I hate these guys who sing about having nothing, when they have millions in the bank.... They don't have anything compared to what I have!"Britt- (Looking a bit confused) "And what is it that you have exactly??"Aj- "I have you!"Britt- (Melts a little inside and knows how much she loves this man...)Aj- "And I can build my own rock crawler and have all that knowlege and they don't!"Britt- (Now feeling like giving him a punch in the face and knows the feelings of melting her insides where gone..) (Now feels like she needs to give him a lesson of not putting her in the same catagory of his rock crawler skills.. Well at least she was first he knows that much!..) LoL Convo Number Two: Today we were sitting on the love seat and I was working on the blog.. Aj: "Well I don't think I want that on there."Britt: "Excuse Me!?"Aj: "I said, I don't want that on there!."Britt: "Well I am the one who pours her soul into this thing and I don't think you even care about this blog and you don't even do anything with it.."Aj: "Well my name is on it, soo it is OUR blog and so I have a say too.. Thanks"Britt: (Sighs, and than goes into the bedroom so he can't see her blogging anymore) ;) 

 

Thank you babe, for dealing with my stubborness, and for loving me for who I am! You bring out the best in me and for that I am eternally greatful!

UnSure?..

Have you ever felt unsure of yourself? All of my life I have always known who I was. Starting out highschool, I knew where I wanted to go in life and how I was going to get there. I was SO sure about myself, that I let all guards down and fell right off the path of sucess I was on and fell right onto a path of destruction. It took me almost three years to realize I was going nowhere, but during that whole time period, I was positive I knew who I was. In this past year I finally have found a happy medium with family, school, friends, ect. I have started 2010 out with an additude that I will not fail, I will keep heading in the right direction. I love that I am going to school for nursing, I love my boyfriend, I love my town, family, friends and my life. But there are still those times where I sit down and think, here I am once again, thinking I know just exactly who I am.. But I have thought this for my whole life. So I can't help but think, what is so different this time?!. In the end I shake off the feeling and just tell myself, you may not know exactly who you are, but you are doing what you love and striving to become better everyday, so somewhere along the way you will figure out what you are meant to do in life and who you are destined to be...

Pouting..

This is what is she does when she is mad at me... Thanks Molly..